Good guys finish last or start first

VERSE 1:

Good guys finish last or start first,

I’ll continue until my hearts hurts,

Only “I” put God first,

Remain humble or a Martyr uh,

My words flows like Rivers and,

Grind til i start my innocence,

God Forgive before I sin again,

break bread and grant my deliverance,

I thank God for another day,

pray can’t have it no other way,

Confess and wash my sins away,

tempted again when raised in this society,

No more with the favors,

Until I get right with my paper

Either way I don’t hate ya

Get yours and fight with flavour uh,

Redemption weighs before I discrimage it,

Simplistic views for my images,

Sophistic pews too new for my pilgrimage,

A confused truce before my Remy ends,

My ellipsis tipses as I fix to risk this my constant blows always seems relentless,

I admit my distance when my verbs assist its defenses,no

God grant me strength how do I cease to miss this?

My insanity needs some clarity,

poor choices made on this vanity,

God understands why they mad at me,

Gave up my good faith with bad morality,

Relinquished thoughts contain my sanity,

Rapidly attacking my individuality,

mentally stressed is that saddening,

Too blind to cease whats happening,

Chorus:

40 days 40 nights I was tempted to sin again/devil scenting like cinnamon/ soul revealing just to relive again/God help me with adjusting these feelings man/ need to take stand while close my hands/ sins of human just understand

Verse 2:

Only one above us or above him/

He judges us but not him/

Counts our blessings and outs sins/

heals our souls with a slight grin/

Defends our woes with slight kin/

Remember that in Genesis, that the

beginning was the start of benefits/

Render benevolence/ pray for my innocence,/

40 day 40 nights he was tempted to sin again/

damn I’m not giving in/

wow in my feelings and,/

Isolated then redemption, when i have so many friends/

wandering thoughts is frequently killing him/

turned to psalms humming my favorite hymn/

number 23 to ward off evils wins/

You’re not my evil twin/

If the Lord’s thy Shepard I’m killing that evil grin/

Wolf in sheep’s clothing, the color of cinnamon,/

Angels in disguise to help rebuke evils kins,/

We’re our own angels own devils, societies rebels, history is disheveled,

We have the power to succeed on every level/ the mysterious unfold and told,

Societies rebels sleeping with devils

The history is a lie to control every level,

From bush to Obama to Obama to Trump,

The art of deception is winning to none,

Thought y’all were smart honestly its dumb,

To believe the lead from the conquered ones,

than the original ones they sinning with guns,

Racking original funds in debt we are one,

Chorus 2x

40 days 40 nights I was tempted to sin again/devil scenting like cinnamon/ soul revealing just to relive again/God help me with adjusting these feelings man/ need to take stand while close my hands/ sins of human just understand

Fades……

Majestic Muse

Verse 1: Patrick, @mycreativepatience

Verse 2: @Real Free flowing (RhymeRula)

#collaboration

Verse 1: @mycreativepatience

Her remembrance is evidence not just simply by her sheer elegance,
An angel heaven sent rendering me speechless,
As her sunset erosion creates the explosion for my defense,
Nothing pretense will past tense as she preaches,
Carefully listening not just with my ears but within my heart as it reaches,
The soul, leaving my body out of place and without the ability to gain control,
Her therapy is the recipe delivering “food for the soul”
the nourishment to guide me while I practice what it teaches

Verse2: RhymeRula, @Real Free – Flowing Words
Consuming her fumes and savoring her words as it digests into something majestic
I remember the times when
Her presence was a safe haven bundling up my languished soul from the peril of a winter storm
The least I could do was spring her back to balance if she may fall.
On some days her heavenly tears pour down with immense intensity
Unfazed as I cup my hands to purify my past sinful actions
Sensing the powers of her tears quench my thirst
rejuvenating me as I stare up at a scorching sunrise
Majestic like a ruby stone her brave soul fights against daily adversity so I can’t leave her alone
Bridging the gap so she can meet me halfway if ever lost
Writers block dormant as I keep my eyes open seeing my everyday muse floating towards me.

Passive Patience

Verse 1: Passive chasing and passive patience/

Leads to an effort done or effort wasted/

Words of expression cease to make it/
With views of new and persona ancient/

Let’s face it!/

Mind full of flaws that’s basic/

No effort being done that’s wasted/

Time elapsed, I run with facts ,define what’s wack then erase it/

Do what you love less hating/

success being done with patience/

I feel so tall with moral laws do I grind too hard to make it?

People criticize when you’re not their favorite,

Distractions in your way call that Satan,

Falsify yourself to make it?

Vulnerable obstacles shame you naked,………..

Chorus(2x)

Heighten my thoughts/

enlighten my eyes/

6 sensed the commotion/

3rd eye in it’s prime/

peripheral vision/

with optimal incline/

The heart mind synced intuition….(then fades)

Verse 2: @Real Free -flowing (RhymeRula)

“No effort done, that’s an effort wasted

It takes very little effort for you to become complacent

Devastated by unfulfilled expectations to the glory you were once chasing,

But from my standpoint I’ll avoid that at all costs

As I eliminate stagnation off my cognition

Substitute it with the infusion of persistence and devotion

The pen is my sword, the stone a page for my words to penetrate,

As lines observe my demonstration

For a story will be told as I smile at their celebration,

No effort done, that’s an effort wasted

In multiple instances my effort was given

but no benefit was received

I know that all too well

by how many times I came up empty

All my effort to stay and pay my dues were thwarted

Progression halted by a sign sealed betrayal

concealed with the weight of a death warrant

Dismissed from the vicinity, a new curriculum is what I’ll save up for

So I’ll make sure my return will be remembered,

Finding myself as a lone traveler in the heart of the city

Holding onto nothing but my integrity,

Acknowledging the harsh spirits that pours throughout souls

Moments wasted but I’ll remain clear minded

The only sane one in the midst of a rumble

putting up a valiant effort to stop the violence

but I’m rendered motionless

due to a sudden fascination by the shine piercing through windows

exemplifying a golden day,

A victim to a hypnotizing radiant medallion in the sky

as I make my effort to search for hope beyond the horizon”

Chorus: (2X into fade)

A Irreplaceable life

Encountered a young girl at work ready to give up her life, as nostalgic/ giving words of experience to her soul reaping in the words of what heart to heart is/ lost in translation in her mind the hurt seems to be heartless/ told her the world is cold while who matters most can ensure that it seems harmless/ there’s steps you haven’t took and steps you haven’t take/ hearts lost is a hearts gain no matter what the break/

A soul is precious that no one can take/ what ifs have nots no matter what’s at stake/ strength in numbers strength at its peak/ harness that pain and channel your peak/ no one defines you only you as the beholder/ a new you will surface thus fore will become bolder/ failures and transgressions/ tribulations an valid lessons/ reflect and feels of human emotion/ waves of notions in motions / it’s precious just just as any/

That value is precious, to someone resilience is plenty/ you’re heart is many, society has us at limit / make it an un limit / feel it/ real it/ deal it and absorb it. /We’re only human, limit is an illusion/ as illustrious as it gets love ones is our transfusion.

If it’s the end of the world it’s not/your experiences, your heart, your pain ,ones love is all you got/ resurrection isn’t an option/ then rise to the top even if you have to flaunt it.

Let the new you Begin.

Shit that grinds my gears #part 1

Rumours an gossip give ppl social activities and jobs, how deep does this rabbit hole go…..

#1 I only stay at home and work out and look at women that’s it.

#Doing everything in your power to force a person to be with someone else? or try something else no one else will ever do (in order to see what will happen). ?

#Putting one down and breaking down a man’s every element in order to see if I will submurge from it.

#Its all over your social media you’re background Jamaican American and proud why are there idiots around thinking other wise(world may never know)

#Here’s another funny one dwelling on something from 8 years ago and still trying to think it’s funny when beating the dead horse is old cans of sardines, in between their mouths in between their legs and in between their butt cheeks/ slap yourself jump off something! Lost myself within all those verbs an adjectives an shit (excuse the language).! I thought having alot energy can have me keep up with the Joneses (guess that backfired on me) practicing how to freestyle being a better poet/ trying to be better with words enhance knowledge a bit with skill set repitoir. Now it’s a habit that one speaks to oneself and is weird, a man singing to himself led to he can sing an others beliefs.

#Bullying in many forms is called one of The laws of power. Whether you are young/ old my age ,submission is not an option kill yourself slow. Example: Sucking teeth constantly. Unless you have strong accent, gay, flamboyant, some women do it. It’s a form of expression through some cultures. Forcing your habit’s on someone else is a problem .

I had moments in time in a dark place, I tried to take my life so therefore I’ve seeked medical help. Felt hopeless I didn’t reach out to alot Cause I had to prove to my self I can do this an I’m a man and to stay strong. You’re living in dark times while in someone else’s it’s luxury, pleasure whatever the circumstances was. Not right to gossip on who doesn’t have full story. Don’t prey on ppl past an their suicidal attempts, Not funny.

#My hobbies talents doesn’t define who i am/ my character with the decisions I make defines it. Because I like to cook and draw things doesn’t make me a chef or artist. I am a gym rat an knowledge seeker/ doesn’t make me certified or a scholar. I write a d freestyle to myself (doesn’t mean I’m heavy into music.)

People don’t define you, you define you

Us humans will find anything to make ourselves feel Superior in any scenario. It’s not necessary/ everyone has unique skill set about them that defines them. Which places them within the genre in the universe.

A what if? Ass Whoopin Chronicles 101

When comedy is weaponized, and a fun game gone has wrong. What Will happened if pushed over the edge.l? see what will happen? “A what if?” What if my foot in someones ass /ass whopping chronicles 101….

Imagine a bunch of lies believed into one major one, an your comedic moments an joy get weaponized. You’re emotional break turns to someone’s else pleasure.

Every move is at the Mercy of some unknown entity, cautiously going through day after day; what’s the next obstacle the universe is going to show me.

Questions rumbling in your head wondering if you deserve it?…. The what if scenarios if situations was played right.

Conscious moment gone steamy to be continued….

It’s 9:30 on a Saturday night. I step out of the shower with the mindset to start rushing to work. Reggae plays in the background on Spotify, some Poopcan “MI Love yuh” to be exact. I crank up the volume and start Jammin’. Even though I’m a mediocre dancer, the least I can do is try my best to retain the Island I have that rushes through my veins.

While I’m Jammin’ and grooming myself, I have a Bengali princess on my mind I met a few weeks prior. She has my mind fucked up after that last massage session. It’ll only be a matter of time before we collapse together and I’m between her thighs. The sun beams radiates off her dark brown eyes, irresistibly sweet and divine even more so now after I look at an Instagram photo she posted than when we first locked eyes. Savoring nightfall as she begins to stare me down while I lay flat on my back. Her momentary dominance causes me to become unsure if I should return to take the lead and begin with us moving in a different position. My phone rings, taking me out my stimulating reverie. Before answering, I double check to see I have everything I need to bring to work so I don’t create anxiety for myself. On the third ring, I answer after putting on my shoes. It’s the “Bengali princess” herself calling to see if she could come by. Not being conscientious enough to call out of work, I left my place being a rebel with a cause to lay the pipe down instead of punching in and out of a timeclock. Fuck it, I’m going all in towards a chance that might not come back my way. Mind you I’m still in my work attire (Black suit jacket, white button up shirt, black tie, and black oxford, I know some Men in black shit). I decide not to change it because, what women would turn this grown and sexy look down even if we were to go somewhere casual? Better to dress up before I’m laid six feet down in rags. It’s ten minutes to 10:30pm and my shift at the W hotel in Boston begins at 11, but like I said before, I can’t miss this opportunity. I meet her on North Cambridge’s Jackson Street and Dudley intersection. I notice she’s a bit intoxicated but that doesn’t distract me from noticing her provocative white floral design sundress that showed a lot of cleavage even though she has a slender frame. It’s hard not to look when they’re staring right at you, so I nod and listen to what she has to say as we proceed to the front door.

Opening the door I guide her to my room. Even though we have been through this very scenario a few times, she automatically asks if I have weed and gets comfortable on my bed. I love when she shows off that a freak in the sheets type look. I roll up a joint as she lays on my bed. Even though I’m distracted by her beauty, I finish rolling within a few minutes.

“Put that down and come over here,” she says

Accepting the command I go over to her as she lays on her side, one pillow on her midsection and one on her head.

“Why don’t you show me your strength with those muscles you work out and give me a massage” she asks running a finger down my forearm.

I pull out body oil out of my small wooden dresser where I keep all my personal hygiene products; lotions, deodorant, cologne and so forth. Lying flat on her stomach she asks before I begin if I have an Iphone charger. I tell her I only have an old school one, but I’ll work on getting an up to date one.

“Hurry up and come closer, I have work in the morning so I don’t have all night”. She’s a bit of a hard ass but that’s what attracted me to her, that spicy and sassy attitude.

“You ain’t gotta tell me twice”

I clap my hands like LeBron James before a big game, in my case oil was dripping off them instead of powder. I start to rub her upper back using a technique I learned called “threading” which involves a heavy use of the thumbs going down the spine. Digging deep into the muscles, I do my best to not get too excited prematurely, but with every crevice explored I just want to to tell her “fuck this, put some Icy Hot on and you’ll be good in twenty mintues”. But I resist the urge because this is only the beginning to a sensual marathon. My hands unbuckle her bra since I found it being in the way, and it also would give me a better range of motion. It was then that I noticed that every song ever since Poopcan was a mix of Reggae and R&B. After drizzling a few more drops of oil on the middle of her back for an even spread, I move onto the edge of the bed because it seems like I was hovering over her . With her body laid out horizontally like those Japanese “body sushi” women I press hard on her shoulder blade. She gives me a gentle moan of approval. With the body oil running low, I use a knotting technique to conserve the oil. Every area is worked over twice, up and down until I reach her tailbone. I lower my face against her skin as I make my way all the way up the top, my nose now touching her tailbone.

I begin to adjust my position again since the lack of posture was starting to affect my performance. I shift and straighten out my body realizing how I neglected a good view from where i was angled. I present her with a light touch as my lips graze the top of her back. Every motion I make is going up towards the back of her neck and right back down. She shifts a little in my trajectory after i reach her lats. My clumsy right hand slips and accidentally ends up touching her right breast. I’m at the point of no return so fuck it I grasp the whole breast and let the moment freeze over and after few seconds I let go. Judging from her body language she loves it and moans a little bit again.

“Play with nipples” she says

Shocked, but ecstatic I did as she said. I spit on her erect nipples as she shifts now laying on her back, looking up at me. She pushes my head down closer to her breasts, as I notice the fierceness in her eyes. Her sexy eye shadow makes it seem as if her eyes itself has the power of seduction and persuasive hypnosis for us to reach another plane of nirvana. I plant a firm kiss on her breasts and then begin to nibble on the side to her neck. As I do this she grabs my right buttcheek and gives it a tight squeeze. I use the tip of my tongue ring and licked around the rim of the belly button to the center as my left arm slides down the side of your hips. This triggers a sensation she was trying to avoid. I reach for her inner thighs increasing the sensitivity with every rub.

“Finish workin my back” she says

I adjust my positioning and footing once more. Hopefully this is my last time doing so because all this moving around is becoming damn tiring. Taking a hold of her hamstrings I apply more pressure than I did on her shoulder.

“Shit!, take it easy, you trying to injure me or somethin’,”?

I massage into the motion of her pierced venus dimples of her lower back slowly. My bloods rushing as I start to massage her ass. It feels too good so I ask her to take her silk skirt off and she agrees. I notice as I peel it off that she’s wearing this pink thong in my mind.Grabbing the oil from the floor I apply the little bit that remains. I drizzle it all over her buttcheeks as if it were hershey syrup being drizzled on ice cream sundae, creating a mountain of liquid sweetness. I smack her ass a little, judging from her reaction, she likes it. Sweat drips off the tip of my brow as I figure out my next course of action. All of a sudden my right foot begins to cramp and the pain intensifies with every second that dwindle.

“Hold up, shit I gotta get up”

“What’s wrong” she asks her eyes filled with amazement and confusion.

“My right foot is cramping like a mothafuckah”

As I stand I plant my foot hard on the floor allowing the floor to act like a walkfit orthotic and align my arche to relieve the pain. The pain subsides and I sit back on the bed wiggling my foot to make sure all the pain is gone. I continue caressing her ass, I put the little amount of oil I have left on her lower ass, both sides. The oil slides and drip off her ass making its way to her vagina. She squirms again but this time it looks like she was starting to give into the urges, and like me wants to make like Marvin Gaye and let’s get it on. I admired every beauty mark, every stretch mark and the complexity of her pecan colored skin.

Sliding my hands slowly down to her hamstrings I grab tight on the back of her calves from then loosen my grip as if I holding on a stress ball. As I did this, my phone begins to ring. “Pass my phone” I ask her since she was using it and placed it on the top right corner of my bed. It was an unknown number and my rule with unknown numbers is I don’t usually answer them, and if I do, I remain silent until whoever is on the other end of the line speaks. I like to create an aura of mystery so I know who my opposition is before proceeding.

“It’s probably some bullshit robocall, I already put my number on the do not call registry”

“Or maybe it’s not” she says

“Well I gotta feelin’ it is”

I return my attention back to her. My fingers slip as I’m caressing her ass, grazing her vagina technically it was my thumb that landed the hole in one. I’m shaking a little, my nerves are out of whack, because I wasn’t sure how responsive her actions were going to be if my actions were to be continuous. Shit I guess she it doesn’t take much to please her, so I’m taking the ball and running the fast break all on my own. It’s all up to me if I score or not. I rotate my fingers in a circular motion. Her ass is arched a bit and I start to notice more. I take light bites to medium bites on her ass, eventually turning them into kisses on each buttcheeks and down to her legs. I’m still nervous as fuck because I haven’t gotten laid in a while (almost a year now) and an one night stand would be like learning how to walk again. I stop what I’m doing and I spread her sugar walls slowly with two fingers little the middle finger grazes the fountain of her rivers sliding them out slowly, giving pleasure to her beautiful flower. I reach the top of the clit (using my index and middle finger to spread it open. The top of my tongue ring helps all long way even though it isn’t long in general but it gets the job done. Anyways, my tongue licks the vulva of it all at once as if I was trying to salvage ice cream from dripping off the side of the cone. Her legs are not fully opened but I can still pleasure her vigorously. Suddenly her thighs clamped around my head and neck, completely catching me off guard. What the fuck she must of watched too much WWE or something cause i have a hard time breathing and i didn’t even get to stick my tongue in her sugar walls yet. *had to set my hands free before those lose oxygen too and she cuts off the use of both hands, since my hands are free at last, i took the opportunity and slide my hands from all the way up her flower in a light touch massage motion all the way up her stomach slowly to the crevice of her breast, *performing a semi rotation a few times then start rubb the rim of her nipples in a semi rotation a few time then did the same focus on the other side, her nipple the skin around her nipples has these cute goosebumps then it solidified* her nipple reminded of candy coated raindrop aka dark caramel chocolate drop with strawberry cream filling inside, ‘of course just like the song’ , let a little bit of spit run on it then all of sudden.. it was flowing down like mollasses, not splitting open her flower too much. “she told me rub my other titty daddy, i later fix my position and rub the other one while shes moving her body in up and down motion; moving my fingers inside her slow without me doing much motion * She beings to moan some more, and her breathing became deeper as i’m feeling every deep breath from her stomach when she does that and arches her back* damn another perfection in admiration no matter what she does, that instant I knew she had her own aura. Carressing under her left breast with one hand adjusted my position (one hand pushed the right inner thigh to the side as two of the three finger on my left hand pushing her flower lips ups and one finger in kinda pulsing while i’m licking the cherry) shes winding a bit as if she was in a trans but more like as if she was belly dancer, all of sudden i removed my other hand, just “my stub” my head is the only thing left in between her legs while shes clamping hard while both hands are carressing under her breast, i give slight squeeze under then try to grasp the whole thing while each hand( one each one the best way i could.) ‘Shes in extacy the rhythm of her hips as my head in between her legs follows her motions as my head drifts into the sea of her ocean*where i can float forever, and set sail to ends of the world in the feeling where its just you in her making love on that boat* i know crazy imagination, A guy can dream you know. I stick my tongue inside, its hard to breath, i start biting each side of her inner thighs in a spontaneous manner simontaniously as both arms are sliding the outside of her quads from the side,her legs open dued to the Euphoric state of mind she was in. Jazmin was in extacy, until her legs opened until it clamped down on me again, as if her legs was a human size wrench. Instead of using my tongue this time I’m using my lips and letting them rub against her flower, while my lips massages her flower in random angles, * I had to tap her titty a few time as a signal that i need to go to the surface for air* she opens her leg a little so the sensation can remain the same, ‘i laughed a little’ “I couldn’t breath i couldn’t breathe” she laughed a little too and that right there made the moment a little more interesting. I had the biggest hard-on as much as the position i was in could of been a missionary position from how i was placed at the current moment, but I couldn’t she wasn’t ready for that as i proceeded to move out of my position and slide up into the missionary style*instantly her demeanor changed into i wanted her to be eaten and whatnot i’m not ready yet daddy (I love when she calls me that) I respected that so i let her take the lead on this one, She told me to “lay down get comfortable and take off my pants” so i can just be left with my boxers on, mind you she adjust her position just to sit on top, she flips her hair to the side (mind you i love when she does that, was picturing it in slow motion as if there was some fan blowing her hair in slow motion. Jazmin begins to remove her bra while on top and doing slow winds to where you can see the rhythm of her hips move *making you want to be in sync with her, i continued to let her do her thing* Her bra is removed and “God’!!! she has some pretty nipples i was watching her ride on me picturing her wanting me to give her a baby type ride. I was admiring every inch on her i mean every thing even up to the look she gives when shes feels good, she has this pure even light and dark caramel tones in various places, but the nipples are like candy coated rain drops( just like the song) *now i have the song stuck in my head while she rides the bull but technically(we’re dry humping at the moment) * As I watched her and looked into her eyes, she pushes my head to the side so I don’t creep her out ( I know its not good to creep your partner out during sex) , was laughing in my head, once again that hard ass persona i was talking about kicked in for a slight moment. She told me “grab my tittie and suck them” i grabbed them without hesitation and i raised up my body; had my right hand on her right breast and the left hand grasp the left titty (as if was going to fall off or something) while i’m grasping it i’m savoring every part of it an caressing under them, as i’ in sync with the motions she was giving(winding motions if i lost you there) we must of been at that for a good 10-15 minutes, told her to go easy cause sometimes when shes ride she switches to 4th gear speed in 2nd if you know what i’m referring too.( meaning she was riding too rough), you have to go easy on the hardware so its not bruise especially we want it to perform in the manner it was suppose to be used(delicate until ready to be proven guilty for damage). Sweat drips down her for head while she rides and presses her hands against my stomach to ride better then a few minutes after that she ends up putting her hands through her hair and her hair goes up back in regular position, while the sweat glistens a bit like mist as she continues riding * jeez i’m falling more than the first day, it was like a scene from a movie or something, watching her telling myself life can’t get better than her* i let my hands slide down her stomach then…”don’t stop grabbing my titties”she said, didn’t have to tell me twice mind( I told myself) I laid back down to sit up again while performing the way she likes it. The ‘Princess herself’ altered her winding motion in rotating manner * I’m thinking to myself she knows this is making me want to make love to you, as my friend downstairs grows like a chia pet, aka it hardens and she continues to enjoy it more* The images in my head, was racing as if i was in trans and a daydream at the same time(crazy thing i was still looking at her ) not sure how it made sense but it did during that moment. Suddenly… she puts her hand around my neck not tight but medium grip; but i can tell it wasn’t her hardest grip, *not used to that actually let me rephrase that I never had that happen to me* i go with the follow wishing in the back of my mind if you’re doing it like that ( thinking to myself if she slides it in and does it like that, its over but i can have wishful thinking? right?) The moment gets a little intense(i should of burned a joint while doing the dew,( I know mountain dew phrase and its a bit corny, but work with me here) i grabbed her waist as she starts to move a bit a bit faster, i pressed down with my hands around her waist. I managed to get enough grip to get a ass grab while she was in that motion all of a sudden *She snatches my hands from where they were placed , and places them right back on her breasts ( i know we’re adults here I can say “Titty as the slang can I?), so I’m reaching simultaneously between both breast at the same time, mind you i’m like at the nipple side to side* as i i give two licks for each one for a few round until……. “I squeeze them together!!!then my tongue hit both at the same time but the but.. my tongue ring is only hitting one of them. The technique is a bit unstable since shes enjoying it as much as i am, * she kicks tilts her head back and her hair is fully out while the rest of the rubber band fell out of her hair, causing her hair to literally flow ( with no consequence), sweat coming off the tip of her brow sliding and the spits as the first few hits me. The sweat drops lands on my forehead, in my my mind I’ve realized I’m putting her to work, she grabs my head; palms it with both hands * she said something in her language, though it was in a soft and serene tone(but it sexy as fuck, i must admit! not too loud and not too short * mind you I’m still performing the act on her breasts while she presses while expressing extacy* she has this look on her face while she biting her lips, it was the left side of her lips, cause from my angle it looked like the right hand side. The princess knocked me back down, pressing against my chest ; she told me not to move as proceeds to ride faster* I already know she alreadys cumming, but thats her way of letting me know* that curbed my curiousity, because i wanted to know what else triggers the sensitivity of a rare flower oozes juice.* meaning that she oozes out ‘rather than squirt, because you can tell that she is by slight pauses. (shes smooth with at the same time) when i laid down i didn’t get back this time. I was about to say something (such as what are you about to….) then she moves towards my face I mean “on my face”! she says you like this pussy? I said you must be eating some fruit, trying to figure out*as i rub my lips and tongue outside her panties* i moved her panties to the side so i can taste the real thing( Thats my way of saying yes, i’m in love with you and it, and i nodded my head to acknowledge her question( couldn’t really answer the it since my mouth was full at that given moment) told her to go easy, so i can savory the pussy the way you like.

Mother and son conversation (Part 1)…

This feeling is hard to digest, a blessing shadowed by a dilemma. It’s difficult to stand still and assess the situation when your turning to every corner to find solutions. To be more specific I was enthused by finding out that my second oldest sister is finished bringing her second child into the world. On the other hand, my mother fragile condition causes her to contemplate calling it quits due to her refusing to take the treatment for her cancer and tumor.

She had that conversation with me early on 3-18-18 and the direction where it was leading became disturbing, but I have to accept it.
She stated as I paraphrase to you…Through all the trials and tribulations, through sabotaging herself, ridding herself of her pride, ruining possible opportunities, not taking care of herself, living in complete denial of her circumstances, addictions of the past reflexing and standing clean and firm to pass off the advice before she goes.

“Just like your grandmother said I’m finally at peace with myself and nothing at this point will destroy that inner peace, haven’t been the best mother but despite the yelling and tampering with my kids’ lives and just being a mom I’m just making up for what I could and couldn’t have done but in different ways”

I’m standing there as she begins to fold my clothes watching “American idol” as she reminisces about hopes and dreams she once had and how we have her blood and our individual fathers bloods running through our veins, not to mention the certain good type of genetics we have.
I told her I hate when she talks like that don’t know how much more my heart can take (knowing I lost both grandparents on both ends, but I’m grateful to still have a grandfather left on my dad’s side plus one on my step moms. So if you were to perish, I’ll still have to face the fact that I’m not as close to my Dad, but yes I try my best to remain close but we have different lives. I’m so stubborn to reach out due to taking a different path because I was listening to the pulses of the heart.
But hey! Life has its own mysteries.
But you’re teaching me things that will marinate in my heart forever.
Could of, would of, should of, but didn’t, these are the things we have to live with.

As we laugh at the commercials, she says, ” I can’t avoid this topic any more than you are, because I refuse to go through what my mother and father went through and I’m not going to cast aside my pride and I’ll be damn to have someone help me use the bathroom nor help wipe my ass and get treated bad” and so forth…
I spaced out holding it in, but remained with a smile thinking to myself I need to speed shit up.
Once the commercial was over, she began to give me a speech with much conviction that enveloped confidence in me to initiate her hopes into fruition. With a smile she says “hey one day you’re going to have a beautiful wife one who accepts you for you but it should never end there. She’ll reciprocate that devotion, and will be a reliable companion that will help you succeed not just with happiness, but one that’s a committed team player that’ll stand beside you no matter what God throws at you, she’ll be there chilling. Her depictions started to manifest into a visual, daydreaming her words of gaiety I felt relieved that my mother always has my best interest even in adverse conditions.
“A queen with a crown you’re going to give her”” I won’t be here when you have kids or to see her show the love she has for you and your other three siblings, it’s up to you to break the news when the time comes. “Everything that I’m going through how can I live with that?”
She stated as she exhaled so she could pace herself to continue to speak, “I can’t ignore the fact either, but I have to embrace my upcoming decision, and I thank you for putting up with my non sense, and being there when I need you most. Everything you do I thank you, even when things are rough you still stay resilient and make that effort even when things are dire you don’t give up”

I finished putting away my clothes in my suitcase as I reached for mug of coffee, to finish the fourth of what’s left of it.
Every smile, and every laugh can sometimes be a painful one in this situation, but I have to continue and accept her decision with a smile on.
In my mind I stand tall and have to absorb every bit of knowledge that comes my way especially from her because I get my stubbornness from her.

(Funny thing she didn’t follow through to be continued)…..

To be continued…

A Passive lesson

I’m passive aggressive, not considered as aggressive,
softness lies offensive thin lines across my message,
stressed life learned lessons ,
Solidified myself within constant tension,
Actions signified as relentless in others eyes counter action is defensive,
How do I stand and create an answer that can help them come to their senses,
To seem that I care about myself and that I’m selfless,
Maybe I spend too much time balancing out my relations and friendship that I created some fences,
That I needed a me time to breathe and face what I am sensing,
The decisions I’m facing is of my own transgressions,
Not every excuse has to be a facade with a muse too dense to know what’s mentioned,
That every action has a reason and every reason has a lesson,
As I consume these fumes and enlightened myself in another demension,
That a fragrance can’t hide the lineage of visions in this session,
How can I be fooled and ruled by someone elses insecured un answered questions?
Forgetting to trust that gut feeling that instinct to ignore what that stench is,
To hold my breath for 3 secs and proceed to walk through these trenches,
The decisions I face today is the experience without the pension,
I don’t live in the past its the past within my blessing,
How can I be true to you when being true to me isn’t yet invented,
That it takes a lifetime to really love and that we could be good friends and,
A phoenix thats still burning within the ash who hasn’t fully resurrected,
That my guide in life was me and I wasn’t properly directed,
Naive and blind looking at the good instead of what hooked the neglected,
The bad motives of the new are the same victims that are comsumed then ejected,
Into void or cycle and the injuries can’t be disectted,
Its bother some knowing the type of soul you are and question if you’re properly respected,
Circumstances, valid lessons to unanswered thoughts to mad impressions,
Unless I’m intentive and that every sin given there would be a slight incentive,
If I found more ways to analyze and focus and be selfish when I add defenses,
I would be strong the way ought to be and have a stronghold of my friendships,
How many times I have to be hit on my head to nail in a lesson,
How to overcome trouble moment and ease up feeling tension,
I have to ease up and know its ok to lower my defenses,
How attention and affection ease hearts and gains recollection,
Theres some value that gives strength while I reflect through this session,
That my validity of decisions had me seek elsewhere instead of the advice I’ve mentioned,
The more I reflect sometimes the more I’m on the offensive,
When my flaws are called at times, the aggressive the defenses,
To witness to experience is knowledge with a silent confession,
So when my knees drop and beat drops I clasp my hands and acknowledge the beautiful friendship.

A transit Mishap with a twist

Miss with the defect to give respect,

We’re on the train side by side while I give no actions for you to deflect,

Its hard to digest while you’re showing no in-ter-est,

So how do confess to you, you’re a gift from God and that you are blessed,

It took a mishap for you to show your crest,

A mishap perhaps persuaded you to confess a bad taste off your chest,

An action turned my way in 3 secs for a convo that lasted 4 stops while that mishap was her regret,

We proceeded up the elevator for another reset,

that neglect of a conversation on the train created a opportune time to plan words said that wasn’t a defect,

A angel that got her feet wet, That bind the time to exchange a time for mine to beat a tune in our hearts where they weren’t in synced yet,

Guided the way where solitude wasn’t subdued, though her screwed up reject that left her behind had to reflect,

That Gods demised both to our surprise added a moment to us that was speechless,

Wishing her a safe trip as she applies her eyes at mine while she plugs her media to thank me for a moment that was descent.